I haven't felt creative or have had any gread ideas in qite a long time. Close to 1o years have passed. I'm cracking up. I'm having panic attaacks initiating from years of obsessive death amxiety and the feelkinG seems to start within my chest. Over the past year, I've seen many doctors and and specialists and I've been trying to get ahandle of those "gotta do's when you're 40" soon things we procrastinate. I, being 44 and feeling left behind on a few issues and landmarks in a tradional life, are: I currently have a PCP, Psychiatrist, Cardiologist, ENT speecialy, Pulmonogolst and a neurologist. Serial. Funny I'm really not a hypocrondriac, or I don't think . My heart, my brain and memory issues, constent asthma and deviated septum (interestly enough because this will be the 2nd surgery to fix the devated septum. I got in a fight with Pete Roses' steroidial twin douche in Hawaii 1.0) and the intial straightened septum become out of line. I also got my colon checked and my hearing (different days and diffeerent stores). I passed both with flying colors on the hearing test (don't beleive it), even though I do have tenitsus with the ringing. She was all weird and didn't want me there. Still bafffles me Maybe I was the youngest to go there in a while. She shewed shew me out afterwards saying I had no hearing loss. Funny side part, she was indeed heard of hearing and I caught myself repeating my shortnend life story. So how does she know if I'm got hearing damage or not?
My guy friends are worried about the colon check. I found a 5 foot anorexic asian woman to do it. I almost peed all over the room, but somehow made it to the bathroom. The doctors intern or whatever who witnessed the test, she froze up, looked terrified, and was out the door before the doctor was.
Wisdom is nice, just wished you didn't have to go through such a long time to attain what you continuous need to move forward in the cosmos.
