Beneath The Outer Shell

this is a bad day for me. little sleep, and i awake to the story of a kid being decapitated at Six Flags over Georgia yesterday.

then on Fox News, there is a story about how Barack Obama supporters have started to take "Hussein" as they're middle name too. allow me to recall your memory for you...these are the same idiots who got all hot and bother when the media came out with using his full name, BARACK HUSSEIN OBAMA. you were, once again, called RACIST if you used his middle name in a sentence. but now, after getting used to the name themselves, they flip flop on NOT using it...into directly promoting it! All within just a few months! kinda like how Hillary and Obama are best friends now and Obama calls them, "Bill and Hillary"...even though 6 months ago they hated each other with a passion unseen in the democratic party.

this goes to show you, ignorance and sheer stupidity are determined to follow the liberal left in America. this is just dumb in so many more ways, i won't even begin.

However, Barack Obama said the following on 06/20/08 in Jacksonville, Florida:

"It is going to be very difficult for Republicans to run on their stewardship of
the economy or their outstanding foreign policy," Obama told a fundraiser in
Jacksonville, Florida. "We know what kind of campaign they're going to run.
They're going to try to make you afraid.

"They're going to try to make you afraid of me. He's young and inexperienced and
he's got a funny name. And did I mention he's black?"

way to go Barack! only you could do something so stupid.

read that again, carefully. John McCain has even been going OUT of his way to NOT talk about race in ANY way whatsoever....

and Obama brings to the table ALL he BELIEVES he has as ammo...the color of his skin. so sad.

ohh, was that a little blunt? the man had a RACIST preacher for 20 years! VERY RACIST i might add.

ohh, and that paper his wife wrote back in college about how unfair it is to be black in America IS important to me (or whatever words you wanna use to describe that rant of a POS paper, which i DID read and found to be immature, extremely offensive, with incorrect generalizations of America). in fact, it goes hand in hand with the liberal philosophy is you really study it.

i work with a few people who don't see these "other Obama friends and family member" issues as being important in a presidential race. this to me, is simply amazing.

leave it to a liberal to refuse to speak about the true character of a person whenever possible! liberals do NOT count the true character of a person when choosing a candidate. remember, these same people didn't think it mattered that Bill Clinton was having affairs with NUMEROUS women. yes, basically what i'm trying to say here regarding Obama is YOU ARE YOUR FRIENDS

it matters to me that The Father of Our Country is in deed...a true patriot, who continues to show his or her love for the the best country in the world. and a person's character, to me, is of the utmost importance as well.

but i know liberals. believe, me i do. i'm 30 years old and have been around MOSTLY liberals my entire life. roughly 1/3 of which have never and will never vote which is a small statement about the group as a whole. but allow me to move on after that cheap shot.

for YEARS i sat quietly about my conservative views until I started this blog a while ago while friends of mine bitched about "Republicans" endlessly. hell, i'm STILL forced to pull out my, "every politician is crooked" speech on a regular basis because i feel like if i can get everyone to agree with me on that...well, that's one step closer for them growing up and seeing the truth.

are all politicians crooked? absolutely, but the fiscal conservative view of the American economy makes so much sense compared to tax and spend. here it is...in an nutshell. tell me different if you don't think this is the norm. (wait...if you're liberal you may think you are reading Greek) the more money you have in your pocket the more money you will inevitably SPEND, even if you try to save every penny. However, the less i have...after increased taxes, the less i'll have to go to the movies, concerts, restaurants, and generally i'll just buy cheaper things i need to have...but once the money is put back in our pocket...most people adjust by spending it all just like before. spending money, is of course, good for America. please don't bring up the current China debacle and our scrambled international trade. i'm not in the mood right now.

and yes, i honestly do believe that as one matures politically in a "regular" way, i believe a lot more times than not, liberals become more conservative as they GROW UP. hell, i remember when i entered college...for a brief moment..i thought it would be cool to be like all of my new friends...liberal, anti-american, tree hugging, babies.

then i grew up.

holy crap!

a 17 year old was decapitated at Six Flags over Georgia after he entered restricted zones to try and retrieve a hat he lost while riding the Batman ride. apparently, the ride itself hit it's full speed of 50mph as it hit the victim.

holy crap!

remember that girl who had her feet amputated by the Superman ride a few years back in Kentucky?

holy crap!

ohh, they also released more news. in May 2002, yet another death occurred at Six Flags over Georgia when a groundskeeper entered the restricted zones at the Batman ride and was hit by the ride.

holy crap!

i realize these 2 deaths have complete idiots to blame. restricted = bad.

but what about the girl who lost her legs? wasn't her fault at all!
ohh yeah...they were able to attach one of her feet back. i'm sure she's thrilled.

i don't think i'm too excited to go to Six Flags anytime soon.

this is too much. decapitated? uhh, i'm not sure i ever wanna go back to Six Flags. talk about some bad energy. no thanks.

i'm manic right now. yes..this very moment while i write this. what you don't see is that every few words you read have been backspaced through and corrected...more than once, all because i am typing at what feels like a zillion words a minute, but in reality it's more like maybe 30 per minute. oh, i did forget to mention i use only 2 fingers while typing. yes..those 2.

it's been a while since my last post. i've been slowly becoming more manic day by day, week by week, and month by month. part of me knew the medicine had stopped working months ago (I have NEVER intentionally skipped a dose), but another part of me wanted to prove to myself i had become better. now, for at LEAST a month...i've been manic.

how manic? what's it like?

the carpet is moving around in front of my eyes...just like an acid trip...like a flashback or something.

ohh, and that glass window door? i honestly feel like I can run right through it. same goes for that wall too, and that car, and that person. you can see where this can be bad, yes.

before i go any further...allow me to explain. i went to the ER today and waited 3 hours for a presciption (amazing how you come in to the ER, show CLEAR signs of mania, and they sit me in a room and give me NO updates for 3 hours). plus, the one guy who did say he was going to grab a remote control for me (hey, it was a small flat screen TV...very pimp for a room with a curtain door). well, he never came back and even avoided making eye contact with me whenever he would pass my room...every 5 minutes...for 2 hours. dick.

and ya know, without being treated or at least given an update as to why i am still lying in a apron in my underwear with a TV turned off with every john, dick, and hary staring at me from the outside of my open room as they wait patiently for their loved one to get a bullet removed from their skull. this was north fulton medical hospital, i might add. so...for so many hours, i started thinking maybe i should have gone to the NON-Emergency Room, as I bet they get serviced faster.

i even asked one of the 13 year old looking nurses after the first 2 hours, "do i have to break every single item in this room to be taken seriously? i'm manic! calm me the f*ck down!" my only problem was I was trying to be quite civil about it at first...with NO luck! i'm sure this 13 year old nurse will remember me for a while after that unload. hey...i said i was MANIC when i walked in and signed papers!

anyway, i did get a prescription for some anxiety medicine until i see a doctor tomorrow. can't go to work. may have to miss a lot of work, but at least i'll have a legal binding note from my doctor. saweeeet! im gonna take advantage of this break. it's long overdue. six flags anyone??

so, yeah. that's how i've been these days...er i mean months. friends haven't heard from me. i'm a little hard to understand because i may tend to talk 300+ words a minute, with no direct relation from one sentence or overly obscure idea to the very next. to those that still call me friends...thank you, i love you more than you'll know.

i'll keep ya posted! in the meantime, i'll be examining the carpet in front of me...simply because it's breathing my way.

ZZZZzzz....what? did someone just say my name? i swear! I just heard my name! ZZZZzzzz....